I am officially a Mrs:) Our day was awesome and I can't wait to get pictures back and share with y'all:) Not everything went perfect or as planned, but you know what I didn't care and I just let it all go and enjoyed an amazing and awesome day:) I am so glad that through all of this I really got to see what true love means and that all the stuff doesn't really matter when it comes down to it:) We were so blessed by so many people that I can't even begin to say enough thank yous:) We are especially gratefull for all the thoughts, prayers and support. Thank you to everyone for everything:)
I will be blogging all about our big day when I can get to a computer that will let me upload photos:) Can't wait to do that:)
Me and my fiance are simple country folk from the midwest. We live on a 30,000 acre cattle ranch where my fiance is a cowboy. We love each other more than life and can't wait to be husband and wife. Both love the LORD and the adventures life brings.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
My last post before our day:)
I should be sleeping, but I thought I would write my last post before we head to our wedding venue tomorrow:) I can't believe it is here. But it is and I am so happy. Everyone asks if I am nervous and I say no I have been ready for a long time and it is soooo true:) I can't wait to marry this man and to be his wife:)
I really want to write a great entry but to be honest I am sooooo tired and I have not been feeling well lately and it has been really bad this week, so Iwill have to write when we return:)
Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes:) Can't wait to tell you all about it when we get back.
I really want to write a great entry but to be honest I am sooooo tired and I have not been feeling well lately and it has been really bad this week, so Iwill have to write when we return:)
Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes:) Can't wait to tell you all about it when we get back.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Now this is true love...Really puts things in perspective!!!
I only wish I had seen this story when I first started planning my wedding, it would have helped me to put things into perspective a lot sooner and to not worry so much about the little stuff. It is scary how close I came to this being me and I still forget how lucky I am sometimes. Please read this and really think about what is important in life:)
In this picture, they were waiting for the nurse to come and start Katie's treatment at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on the morning of January 12, 2005.
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. Katie had chased away cancer once, only to have it return - to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart. Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.
In this picture, they were waiting for the nurse to come and start Katie's treatment at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on the morning of January 12, 2005.
Nick who works night shift as a Lapeer County Sheriff's deputy took Katie to the medical center after a night's work, three days before their wedding. In the picture, Nick Godwin, left, is waiting for her and takes a moment of rest while his bride Katie, right, gets an intravenous procedure to reduce the amount of fluids her body is retaining.
Katie holds some of her daily medication for several minutes before taking them as she waves in and out of sleep because of the morphine she takes while sitting in the living room of the family home in Metamora.
She was in a lot of pain in the days leading to her wedding taking morphine and numerous medications to help her. Niki ,right, took a leave of absence from work so she can take care of her daughter, Katie who now needs constant assistance.
Katie walks past a photograph of herself when she was homecoming queen at Lapeer East High School where she also was a co-valedictorian. the photograph sits on a table in her family's home living room in Metamora.In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.
Katie puts on some earrings a few minutes before walking down the aisle to marry the man who she had known since 11th grade, at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.
An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.
Here the couple says their vows....In sickness, in health...Till death do us part. Knowing that these were their realities.
Katie in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, gets serenaded by her new husband and his best men during the wedding party on the dance floor.
At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. She was exhausted. Her face looked as white as her gown. The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods.
Katie died five days later after her wedding day.She did not let sickness stop her from living, take away the hope or faith that made her believe she had a future. She had a lovely wedding and she had love and she gave love and love doesn't die. And that is how Katie beat cancer. **************************************************
What a strong and determined young woman, Katie was. I am truly amazed at her strength, to get up and get dressed and to be able to get married when she was so sick and weak!! That is soo amazing! And what an amazing and awesome man, Nick is!! He loved her so much that he never left her side! To stay with her through her treatments, and most importantly, to marry her instead of breaking up and running away! Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should appreciate what we have in our lives and the time we have it:)
Life is short.
Break the rules.
Forgive quickly.
Love truly.
Laugh constantly.
And never stop smiling.
Taking time to enjoy this journey
So this will all be over in a few days. Seems like it took forever for it to get here, but now that it is here I can hardly believe it:) I just wanted to take a little time today and just reminisce and enjoy this. I know things haven't gone as planned, but you know what it doesn't matter. In the end all that I wanted was to be married to this awesome man:) All the little mishaps and stuff are really no big deal in the whole picture:)
I am just sooooo excited to finally be saying I do to this man. We have come a long ways and been down a bumpy road and we are stronger and happier for it really. You always have people ask what would you change? But really I wouldn't change a thing, because if I changed one thing it would change everything. I am just glad we are where we are and the love we have for each other is stronger and more powerful than I thought it could be.:)
It is sooo easy to get caught up in all the hype and to let others actions take away your joy, but I have had enough of that. The only person you can change is you and that is what I am doing, I am just choosing to change how I react when others hurt me or disappoint me. I know easier said than done and it is something you will constantly have to work at, but that is what life is, it is growing and maturing and learning till the day you die. You will never know it all and there is always something you can learn from everything and everyone if you just look for it:)
I can't wait to see how our day turns out and to have the pictures to share with everyone:) I am just so excited to see what the LORD does for our day. He has already blessed us immensely:) It will definitely be an amazing day no matter what:) That day I will marry my best friend:)
I am just sooooo excited to finally be saying I do to this man. We have come a long ways and been down a bumpy road and we are stronger and happier for it really. You always have people ask what would you change? But really I wouldn't change a thing, because if I changed one thing it would change everything. I am just glad we are where we are and the love we have for each other is stronger and more powerful than I thought it could be.:)
It is sooo easy to get caught up in all the hype and to let others actions take away your joy, but I have had enough of that. The only person you can change is you and that is what I am doing, I am just choosing to change how I react when others hurt me or disappoint me. I know easier said than done and it is something you will constantly have to work at, but that is what life is, it is growing and maturing and learning till the day you die. You will never know it all and there is always something you can learn from everything and everyone if you just look for it:)
I can't wait to see how our day turns out and to have the pictures to share with everyone:) I am just so excited to see what the LORD does for our day. He has already blessed us immensely:) It will definitely be an amazing day no matter what:) That day I will marry my best friend:)
Monday, September 21, 2009
I'm getting married this weekend:)
We are down to the last week. Well less than an actual week now. SOOO much to do and things aren't exactly perfect, but you know what we decided? We decided us being married is perfect and so that is what we are going to concentrate on:)
I have so much to get done this week and we leave friday morning for the place so I got 4 days to get things done and here I sit on my computer:) Well gotta keep everyone up to date:)
So much isn't going right at this point, but like I said we are just going to do with what we have and be happy:) It isn't the stuff that makes the day, it is us:) We had planted corn and pumpkins for most of our decorations and since the weather has been so cool it isn't going to be even close to ready, my wedding dress is definelty not the most flattering style on me(but atleast I have one right:)), my wedding ring set won't even fit since I have gained water weight and such with meds, and we have barely enough money to even get to the place, so pray for us we get everything paid and get home:), we were suppose to go on a little road trip for our honeymoon but we have had to cancel that idea since we don't have the money, and I could go on, but you know what......Does all that really matter? Well of course it does in a way and it is nice to have but it doesn't make a marriage:) Maybe someday we will get to make up for some of the things we would have liked to have done or had, but if not I am still going to remember that day as an awesome, amazing, dream of a day. The day I said I do, forever, to my handsome:) The day I became his wife:) That is what I will remember:)
I will try and write again before the big day, but if I don't I will definetly share when I get back.:) I am sure there will be plenty to share:) Thank you to all who have helped and have been praying, you have made a huge difference and I love hearing from y'all:)
I have so much to get done this week and we leave friday morning for the place so I got 4 days to get things done and here I sit on my computer:) Well gotta keep everyone up to date:)
So much isn't going right at this point, but like I said we are just going to do with what we have and be happy:) It isn't the stuff that makes the day, it is us:) We had planted corn and pumpkins for most of our decorations and since the weather has been so cool it isn't going to be even close to ready, my wedding dress is definelty not the most flattering style on me(but atleast I have one right:)), my wedding ring set won't even fit since I have gained water weight and such with meds, and we have barely enough money to even get to the place, so pray for us we get everything paid and get home:), we were suppose to go on a little road trip for our honeymoon but we have had to cancel that idea since we don't have the money, and I could go on, but you know what......Does all that really matter? Well of course it does in a way and it is nice to have but it doesn't make a marriage:) Maybe someday we will get to make up for some of the things we would have liked to have done or had, but if not I am still going to remember that day as an awesome, amazing, dream of a day. The day I said I do, forever, to my handsome:) The day I became his wife:) That is what I will remember:)
I will try and write again before the big day, but if I don't I will definetly share when I get back.:) I am sure there will be plenty to share:) Thank you to all who have helped and have been praying, you have made a huge difference and I love hearing from y'all:)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Final Dress fitting and a package from a fellow bee:)
Ok so yesterday was a day of joy and frustration for me. First my joy, I got my package in the mail from one of my sweet fellow bees:) Beachwedding92509 Sent me a really cute decorated package with little bee pictures all over it and inside two veils to choose from and a couple other little gifts:) She is so very sweet!! I can't even begin to say how much the kindness means to me. It is awesome to know that there are people out there that still care. I will make sure I do the same when I am done and help another brides dreams come true:) Thank you again fellow bee:)
Well here comes the frustration, I REALLY DON'T LIKE MY DRESS!!!! I know beggars can't be choosers and I really am kicking myself for saying it or thinking it, I am lucky to even have a dress. But we put it on yesterday and it just doesn't look good on me:( Thanks to all my thyroid problems and medication stuff I have gained 70 lbs in the past two years! Yes I said 70:( It is so hard to look in the mirror at this person that I don't even recognize and hate to even see. It doesn't matter what I do I can't loose weight. I can diet, I can exercise and it don't do any good, actually the dieting stuff usually makes me gain more and since I am sick most of the time the exercising makes me sicker, even though I am still stubborn and do it anyways a lot of the time. It is just so frustrating feeling crappy everyday and then looking in the mirror and feeling worse.:(
The dress is actually to small so thank GOD for corsets, but you can tell it is to small and the cut is not flattering at all on me. Plus that lovely extra spills over the top and really ads to the not so sexy look! I am just so scared I am going to get my wedding pictures back and hate them for what I see in them. This is not me and I don't want this to be me!
Again I am just lucky to even have a dress, and I should care more about who is in the pictures with me, rather than what I look like, but I just want to be so beautiful for him and he always tells me I am and he really says I need to give myself a break after all I have been through. He says that he is amazed how much I have been through and how I have done with it all. My biggest down fall is the beating myself up over my weight and looks. But it is so hard. You just keeping gaining, your hair falls out, your skin is like a lizard, your nails break every two seconds, every thing that makes you feel like a beautiful woman is gone. I am sorry for being so negative, it is just harder some days than others!
Thank you again to everyone that has been praying and supportive, it has made this all soooooo much easier and enjoyable:) You have no idea what it has all meant to me!!! Thank you everyone!
Well here comes the frustration, I REALLY DON'T LIKE MY DRESS!!!! I know beggars can't be choosers and I really am kicking myself for saying it or thinking it, I am lucky to even have a dress. But we put it on yesterday and it just doesn't look good on me:( Thanks to all my thyroid problems and medication stuff I have gained 70 lbs in the past two years! Yes I said 70:( It is so hard to look in the mirror at this person that I don't even recognize and hate to even see. It doesn't matter what I do I can't loose weight. I can diet, I can exercise and it don't do any good, actually the dieting stuff usually makes me gain more and since I am sick most of the time the exercising makes me sicker, even though I am still stubborn and do it anyways a lot of the time. It is just so frustrating feeling crappy everyday and then looking in the mirror and feeling worse.:(
The dress is actually to small so thank GOD for corsets, but you can tell it is to small and the cut is not flattering at all on me. Plus that lovely extra spills over the top and really ads to the not so sexy look! I am just so scared I am going to get my wedding pictures back and hate them for what I see in them. This is not me and I don't want this to be me!
Again I am just lucky to even have a dress, and I should care more about who is in the pictures with me, rather than what I look like, but I just want to be so beautiful for him and he always tells me I am and he really says I need to give myself a break after all I have been through. He says that he is amazed how much I have been through and how I have done with it all. My biggest down fall is the beating myself up over my weight and looks. But it is so hard. You just keeping gaining, your hair falls out, your skin is like a lizard, your nails break every two seconds, every thing that makes you feel like a beautiful woman is gone. I am sorry for being so negative, it is just harder some days than others!
Thank you again to everyone that has been praying and supportive, it has made this all soooooo much easier and enjoyable:) You have no idea what it has all meant to me!!! Thank you everyone!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
10 days left!!!!!!!!
Oh my only 10 days left:) YEAH!!!! Can't believe it is almost here. I can't wait. I have soooo much still to do and here I sit blogging instead of doing:) But gotta keep my readers interested:) hee hee!!! Can't wait till we have a computer that will alow me to include pictures. Someday, keep praying for us:)
So I still have a lot to do with decorations and decorating my cupcake wrappers, making my mason jar lanterns, and next week will be crazy busy with make-up trials, making cake and cupcakes, and making my favors. It is quite the challenge when doing it all alone. Also since our weather has not cooperated here our corn and pumpkins and such won't be done and that was all our main decorations, so I have no idea what we will do now, but we will come up with something:) Plus we add in my fiance getting baptized on sunday and that makes for a full day. I am soooo very excited about that though. Huge answer to prayers:)
There are little doubts and sadness that still want to creep in though and I am trying hard to push them back out. We are barely even going to have enough money for the gas to get there, so there are a lot of things we needed for decor and such that we aren't going to get, and we aren't going to be able to have our little honeymoon road trip either:( But the sadest is that my fiance really wanted a jacket to wear and new nice boots, but we can't afford them. He feels like he isn't going to look nice enough up there with me in nice jeans and a nice dress shirt. I feel so bad that he is feeling like that and that we can't afford those things for him:( But we have had to just pray and say we aren't letting things we don't have ruin our day:) We are just going to enjoy what we do have and those who will be with us:)
I can't wait to get pictures back to share with everyone:) It is going to be fun I am sure!! Thank you to all who read and comment and to all who are praying for us:) We appreciate everything that eveyrone has done to help make our day special:)
So I still have a lot to do with decorations and decorating my cupcake wrappers, making my mason jar lanterns, and next week will be crazy busy with make-up trials, making cake and cupcakes, and making my favors. It is quite the challenge when doing it all alone. Also since our weather has not cooperated here our corn and pumpkins and such won't be done and that was all our main decorations, so I have no idea what we will do now, but we will come up with something:) Plus we add in my fiance getting baptized on sunday and that makes for a full day. I am soooo very excited about that though. Huge answer to prayers:)
There are little doubts and sadness that still want to creep in though and I am trying hard to push them back out. We are barely even going to have enough money for the gas to get there, so there are a lot of things we needed for decor and such that we aren't going to get, and we aren't going to be able to have our little honeymoon road trip either:( But the sadest is that my fiance really wanted a jacket to wear and new nice boots, but we can't afford them. He feels like he isn't going to look nice enough up there with me in nice jeans and a nice dress shirt. I feel so bad that he is feeling like that and that we can't afford those things for him:( But we have had to just pray and say we aren't letting things we don't have ruin our day:) We are just going to enjoy what we do have and those who will be with us:)
I can't wait to get pictures back to share with everyone:) It is going to be fun I am sure!! Thank you to all who read and comment and to all who are praying for us:) We appreciate everything that eveyrone has done to help make our day special:)
Friday, September 11, 2009
Two weeks left to get it all done!!!!!
Can't believe in two weeks we will be on our way to high plains homestead and where we will be getting married:) I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO beyond excited:) I still have quite a bit to do, but I will just do the best I can and hope it all turns out ok:)
I am just so excited to finally be marrying my handsome:) He is the greatest guy in the whole world and I am so lucky to have him. We have had a lot of excitement lately. I am a very dedicated christian by that I mean to the LORD and not the religion:) My fiance to loved the LORD, but didn't really know about him and had never officially given his life to him, but over the past couple months he has really been getting passionate about prayer and wanting to live right, and about a month ago now he gave his life to the LORD at a cowboy church. It has been amazing the changes in him, and the love he has for me is even more than I thought:) He even moved into the little bunk house so our wedding night will even be more special. We weren't "sleeping" together anyway, but it will just be all that more blessed. And just yesterday he talked with the Pastor and he will be baptized the sunday before our wedding. All I can say is YEAH!!!!!!!! I am so happy that I will be marrying a GODLY man:) I really believe that is why it didn't all workout till now. GODs timeing is amazing:) Thank you LORD:)
I need to get working on things, but I find myself here writting:) I still have to finish making decorations, sewing the ribbons for my dress, and figure out all the decoration details. We had planted corn and pumpkins, but with it being such a cool summer they will not be ready, so now I am not sure what to do, we can't afford to go out and buy more decorations. I will just have to look around and see what we have:) I am sure something perfect and awesome will come up. So far the LORD has answered more prayers than I can imagine:) Well better get to work:) Can't wait to get pictures and borrow a computer to download them and then everyone can see the story:)
I am just so excited to finally be marrying my handsome:) He is the greatest guy in the whole world and I am so lucky to have him. We have had a lot of excitement lately. I am a very dedicated christian by that I mean to the LORD and not the religion:) My fiance to loved the LORD, but didn't really know about him and had never officially given his life to him, but over the past couple months he has really been getting passionate about prayer and wanting to live right, and about a month ago now he gave his life to the LORD at a cowboy church. It has been amazing the changes in him, and the love he has for me is even more than I thought:) He even moved into the little bunk house so our wedding night will even be more special. We weren't "sleeping" together anyway, but it will just be all that more blessed. And just yesterday he talked with the Pastor and he will be baptized the sunday before our wedding. All I can say is YEAH!!!!!!!! I am so happy that I will be marrying a GODLY man:) I really believe that is why it didn't all workout till now. GODs timeing is amazing:) Thank you LORD:)
I need to get working on things, but I find myself here writting:) I still have to finish making decorations, sewing the ribbons for my dress, and figure out all the decoration details. We had planted corn and pumpkins, but with it being such a cool summer they will not be ready, so now I am not sure what to do, we can't afford to go out and buy more decorations. I will just have to look around and see what we have:) I am sure something perfect and awesome will come up. So far the LORD has answered more prayers than I can imagine:) Well better get to work:) Can't wait to get pictures and borrow a computer to download them and then everyone can see the story:)
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Getting down to the wire! YIKES!!!
So we have less than 3 weeks to go. Can't believe it is almost here. We still have quite a bit to do. Today I am working on making my garter and a few other decor projects. Still have to do the bouquet, veil, misc decoration stuff, and lots of other little things. Plus gotta help my fiance make the cupcake stand. We are doing it out of iron and horseshoes. Can't wait to see it when it is done:) There is such an accomplished feeling when you do things on your own, but it makes it a little stressfull also:) But we will know that love and time went into making our day special:)
I hope everyone elses wedding plans are going well. And Congrats to all you brides who said there I Do's in the last couple weeks. I love reading all the blogs:) Well better get back to work, sooo much to do:)
I hope everyone elses wedding plans are going well. And Congrats to all you brides who said there I Do's in the last couple weeks. I love reading all the blogs:) Well better get back to work, sooo much to do:)
Thursday, September 3, 2009
The dress mess update!!!
Ok so after talking to tons of people and googleing my brains out I decided on soaking just the outer part(organza) in cold water and woolite concentrate. I soaked it for about 5 hours or so and then rinsed it and it looks almost brand new. I then took just a wash rag and lightly blotted the stains higher up with the solution and they came clean:) YEAH!!!!!!!!! It isn't perfect, but way better and I have an outdoor wedding anyways so it will be dirty again:) I was so pleased with as much as did come out. Barely any spots left and they are prity faint. I really wish I could upload some photos for y'all to see. I know it would make my blog more interesting:)
We are getting so close and so much to do still. But just doing one thing at a time as we can with money and such. There are probably a lot more things we needed to do, but we can only do what we can do and that is it. Just wish we would have had a little more time or money:) hee hee!! Don't we all:)
We are having quite a few more people than we thought would be able to come though and that is thanks to all the nice new friends at our little church here. We have been really blessed by all them and are very excited to be a part of it all:)
We are getting so close and so much to do still. But just doing one thing at a time as we can with money and such. There are probably a lot more things we needed to do, but we can only do what we can do and that is it. Just wish we would have had a little more time or money:) hee hee!! Don't we all:)
We are having quite a few more people than we thought would be able to come though and that is thanks to all the nice new friends at our little church here. We have been really blessed by all them and are very excited to be a part of it all:)
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